August 4, 1999

Notes
This session was held in the weeks before the August 11, 1999, Solar eclipse and fixed square alignment. While we awaited the event with some anticipation, DS and I also remained somewhat distant from the grand ceremonies and excitement felt by many. Emissary referred to this even in the past as not being so unusual, except to the extent that humankind's observation of it reflected an undercurrent of change taking place "beneath the surface of ordinary awareness."
     Perhaps not so coincidentally, my own development in channeling was about to change, as we began to seek to include more individuals in our sessions. Emissary suggested that this would bring more and new energy to the practice. At this time, our first group session had not been scheduled, but much of the first part of the session (not recorded here) regarded this change.

Session

Emissary:
(to Carol T, who was somewhat distracted by something she was reading):
Has something captured your attention?

DS:
I was just kind of glancing over this article, an excerpt about what we were talking about … the solar eclipse. It says to "identify your dream, define it as a realistic project, and do what it takes to make it happen."

So it's talking about how to use the energy to your advantage.

Emissary:
Yes. Use the energy to your advantage. Interesting phraseology - interesting phrasing. If read one way, we could not recommend that you follow that path. If read another way, we could heartedly recommend that you follow that path.

DS:
What do you mean?

Emissary:
Let me explain. If you read the passage in such way that you interpret it that you must DO something, that you must make a plan and go step by step toward your dream, we do not strongly suggest it. It is enough that you identify your dream and make that dream part of your reality by using your mental and spiritual tools. It is basically a misunderstanding that you must create your future step by step, working toward a dream.

DS:
You're talking about the difference between somehow embodying that dream and the other concept where you are not there and you keep reaching out for it, taking steps to get there.

Emissary:
Essentially. This is the essence, yes. It is the difference between trust, between trusting and intending, versus planning and conniving and struggling to reach your dream. Our discrepancy comes with the term "making it happen," you see. "Make it happen" implies a continuation of the old way of struggling to climb the mountain to reach your dreams and to earn what you do not deserve as opposed to intending and trusting and allowing. There is a big difference.

DS:
Yes, I know that. In fact, when I read statements like that I tend to think in terms of. For me, personally, I see an openness and a general unfolding. There are times when I think I wish things could be another way or why isn't it blah blah blah. But I'm much better of when I just let that go and trust the process: that things will be exactly as they should be, which they are.
And so I read something like that and I think and start to question whether I am pursuing my dreams or not. And sometimes I think that it is important to just enjoy the process, instead of always thinking that you have to go for something, that there's this carrot you have to latch onto, that it is unattainable.

Emissary:
Yes. Because there is no way to attain what you want. It cannot be done!
It is possible that what you want can come to you, that you can be what you want. Clearly the most important issue in your creation is that you clearly understand what you want. If you are clear about that, then there is no real question as to whether you are pursuing what you want; it is pursuing you.

DS:
Right.

Emissary:
It has been said that there is much power in being clear about what you want. Being less than clear, essentially gives the universe a mixed message: "I want this and a little bit of that, and maybe this over here." That will not work. It cannot work. There is nothing for the universe to latch onto. So, it is so important to identify what you want.
And it is not in words, necessarily - probably not in words. It is a feeling, not emotion, but a knowing of what you want that is important. This moves that mental image in from the realm of "wishful thinking" to the realm of knowing and making it yours. Once you have made it yours through your knowing, it will happen. It is inevitable. (All with great emphasis.)
That is the power of knowing what you want and trusting the universe.
If the people on your plane, on your planet, can fix this for themselves in this time or any other time, what a change there will be in your universe!

DS:
What kind of changes would that mean?

Emissary:
Perhaps beyond imagination. Picture a universe in which - picture a city perhaps, even - in which everyone has that view of how things are created. Can you imagine the energy and power of that city when people no longer work hard to achieve things that they think they want or they have been told that they want … that truly know what they want and they truly know how to trust the universe to make it so. Do you see the difference?

DS:
This has come up in several conversations I've had in the past week. I don't know if it's just our culture here in America, but we're raised to think that we have to pursue these things. A process that we go through…

Emissary:
Yes, a process.

DS:
Or we grow up, go to school, move out get married have kids.

Emissary:
Yes, this is the reality which you have structured you have crated within this particular culture that you speak of. There are other cultures in which this does not operate quite the same way. What you are speaking of when you speak with others about these issues is no less than a revolution in though and consciousness. It is that different; it is that important.
A revolution in consciousness. What an idea! Are you up for it?

DS:
I think so.

Emissary:
Hmm.

DS:
Why?

Emissary:
It is probably enough to think so. Do you see the irony?

DS:
I don't think so.

Emissary:
The phrase "I think so" implies that you do not know, and it is in the knowing that there is the power.

DS:
Ok, then. I know so!

Emissary:
Much better! So, if you are ready for the revolution, the revolution is ready for you. The question is how do you move into it? No?

DS:
In some ways, I feel betrayed.

Emissary:
By…?

DS:
By buying into this view, because it has not necessarily brought me the promised happiness or whatever. That comes from other things, not from a singular pursuit.

Emissary:
Yes. How many revolutions have begun from a sense of betrayal, do you know. Can you imagine? At the root of revolution is a sense of betrayal that what has been sold to one is damaged goods.
So, we would say that you are primed and ready to participate in this revolution of consciousness.

DS:
Yes.

Emissary:
Then what will be your first maneuver?

DS:
Well I started last week by shopping at a thrift store, instead of shopping at a department store. Does that count?

Emissary:
Of course! Whatever you do counts. Whatever you do is creating your reality. Whatever you think, whatever you believe. Yes, of course it counts.

Does it pursue what you want? That is the key question.

DS:
Oh, yeah.

Emissary:
Then you are moving along.

DS:
I should probably keep thinking about ways to change things like that because it is very empowering. Oh, yeah, and canceling the newspaper. Certain things like this may effect other people I live with. It may take them a while to adjust, or if we were to sell the house….

Emissary:
Certainly huge life changes would cause "a ripple in the force," you might say. Smaller changes may be made quietly with little repercussion. And the newspaper cancellation caused nary a ripple, you see? There is always resistance to some change. The larger the change, the more resistance.

We are particularly interest in your definition of what you want. We do not get a sense that you are clear in regard to defining for yourself what it is that you want. Perhaps we are mistaken, but it is an impression that we have. And we are not asking or suggesting that you elucidate at this time. It is merely that there is so much importance in answering that question, that we suggest that is a very good place to start.

DS:
I feel like there are so many things that I want, and I won't go into them, but I am becoming clear about those things, and I do not settle like I used to. When I see some injustice to what I want, I do ask about it.

Emissary:
To the issue of "there are so many things that you want," as a suggestion, you might find ways to knit these various things together into a clearer picture of a whole - the constellation, if you will - of what you want. It is more powerful to hold this sort of knowing than it is to hold many knowings. It is much simpler and much more direct, much more powerful.

DS:
I probably need to make one of those things, I forget what they are called, a piece of poster board and on it you envision things that you want. You cut things out of magazines and glue them on. That causes one to think about it in a more holistic way. I just don't have a lot of magazines.

Emissary:
And the ones you have you would hate to cut up! (with humor)
Another point of curiosity, are you clear in regard to the word "things?" When the word things appears in conversation, it is usually related to objects, rather than states of being or feelings. Do you see? "Things" has a different connotation that we are not certain we connect.

DS:
No, it's not things.

Emissary:
Is there a clearer word that describes what you are thinking?

DS:
Desires? Needs? I didn't mean that they were things.

Emissary:
We understand, and what we are attempting to do is to reflect to you the way that the universe may see what you are expressing. It is important to be as precise as possible in your expression. You may have a good mental vision of what it is that you want, but as you speak the words, then the words need to have some degree of precision, otherwise there is a mixed communication. Does that make sense?
So, in creating this image, this what you want - think of it in terms of how you envision it in your mind, how you would express it by your speech, how they feel, what kinds of feelings are there? Imbue this what you want with a variety of clear ways of conceptualizing that what you want. The clearer you can be, in as many different dimensions as you can muster, the greater the power of that creation, the clearer and easier it is for the universe to fulfill it for you.

The universe clearly does not listen to your words, but words have power. The words have power. They are not words, they are sounds.

You may, if you wish, even make up sounds that describe what you want. You see? As long as for you the sound that you create to describe that clearly describes it to yourself.

Perhaps we belabor the point, but it is very important. And we are pleased that this is being recorded and this one [Gerry] could use a lesson in creating what he wants, as well.

Long Pause....

DS:
One of the main things that I've thought over and over in my life recently has been a kind of recent thread, and it has led to some confusion by others is that I desire passion in my life, and that can be many things. I mean passion can be … I see it as an authenticity, a heighten feeling of realness, and deeper mode.

Emissary:
Is this something that you wish to imbue, to have part of you, or something that you wish to come to you from the outside?

DS:
Well, I think I have to start with myself. That's all I really have to work with.

Emissary:
Yes, this is so. So what we sense you are seeking is a more "authentic way of being." And you define that authenticity as some aspect of what you are calling passion, although passion has other connotations, as well as authenticity. Feeling passion about what you are doing at any given point in time.

This is quite power facet of a description of what you want, and it comes to you your repeatedly. It is something that your spirit is saying: "Authenticity, authenticity! Be authentic." And so, this is a good clue to you that this notion of authenticity is a facet of what you want. It is a peeling away of the covering of who you are and expressing that consistently.

DS:
I think part of my drive is growing up as a child, being told I should feel a certain way, that I should not feel a certain way, that I should listen to other people instead of myself. That no longer works for me at all, I do not want to operate that way. And don't for the most part.

Emissary:
What you are doing is you are creating your past in a way that emphasizes your desire for authenticity. And you are using your past to prove to those parts of yourself that either don't understand or do not buy into the issue of authenticity that this is, in fact, the way to go. Otherwise, in the past it has not been fulfilling. We must give ourselves the right to be authentic. It is a message that you are sending to all of your selves, and again, creating the past that supports that argument.

DS:
Hmm. Do you have any tips for getting there?

Emissary:
For getting to be authentic?
We suggest that you are learning now how to be authentic. You are acting in what you would call a more authentic mode than you have in the past. What will assist you to move further is to come from a stance of allowing others to be as they are.
You see, it is not possible for you to be authentic in isolation. Others around you must be permitted to be themselves - their authentic selves - also.

DS:
Aha.

Emissary:
So. Ponder this. There many be some implications of this concept that might be useful to you.

[Long pause. Dogs bark noisily outside are quiet for a moment, then continue their sounding.]

DS:
That's a big one for me, I know. I think sometimes I am hard on myself, and that makes me be hard on other people.

Emissary:
Yes, being hard on oneself is not part of being authentic. Does this make sense to you.

DS:
I'm writing this down. (Pause) I think that I would like to end. I think I would like to digest what you have told me.

Emissary:
Very well. Until the next time. We will see you again.

[End]